My project Proposal
In the first half of 2019, I was struggling in the darkest period I had ever had. I was suffering from depression and was trapped deep in it. the mental illness soon transferred to the physical pain which started to affect my health. Every day I was in negative emotion and didn’t know what to do. I lost passion for anything and doing nothing but killing time. I even don’t want to talk with people and limited myself in the room. I didn’t remember when I came up with the idea of committing suicide, but that once it appeared, it never went away. when it was approaching the end of last semester, I almost made the decision that I would get out of this shitty world. In consideration of a better near-death experience, I decided to lay down on the rails. I thought a lot when I walked approaching to the rails and sat here for a long time. I finally didn’t do it and I totally forget the reason. I stood up and went to the 711, bought some food then back to sleep.
My friends found a place on campus where we did our club events there. I didn’t take that place in mind until I started working on my project. It is a decaying forest with nobody takes care and the railway just near it. the environment was great and suitable for the topic because it was raining and windy before we went there, we could see many branches and leaves on the ground and created a decadent feeling.
I asked my friend as my model and let him simulate my mental activity that night. Trying to find a way out.
references
Hippolyte Bayard, 1801 to 1887, he is a French photographer and pioneer. He invented his own process that produced direct positive paper prints In the camera, and he also presented the world’s first public exhibition in 1839. In his early life, he worked as a civil servant and at the same time he experimented with photography. During his career, he continued to be a productive member of the photographic society. He was a founding member of the French society of photography. His famous work is his self-portrait as a drowned man.
Arthur Tress , born in 1940, he is the youngest of four children in a divorced family, Tress spent time in his early life with both his father, who remarried and lived in an upper-class neighborhood tress born in and his mother, who remained single after the divorce. At age 12, he began to photograph circus freaks and dilapidated buildings around Coney Island in New York City, where he grew up. Tress earned a Bachelor of Fine Art at Bard College in New York. After graduating from Bard College in 1962, Tress moved to Paris to attend film school but soon dropped out. While living in France, he traveled to Japan, Africa, Mexico, and throughout Europe, mostly in Asia and Africa. In the late 1960s, Tress was inspired to do a series based upon children’s dreams that combined his interests in ritual ceremony and social allegory.
Raymond Cauchetier (born January 10, 1920) is a French photographer, known for his work as the set photographer from 1959 to 1968 on many of the seminal films of the French New Wave. His photographs are an important record of the New Wave directors at the beginning of their careers, and of their unconventional and groundbreaking production methods.he was Self-taught, Cauchetier began taking pictures while serving in the press corps of the French Air Force in Indochina.
Final project
Finding a way out
outcomes
9 images
my mental activities when I was going to lie down on the rails
a forest near the rails at the western part of campus
methods
trying to involve documentary and street photography style in my project
Fujifilm camera 18-55mm
late in the afternoon around 5 pm
