Karin Colbourne

Discomfit

18” x 24”

Acrylic on Canvas

 

Karin Colbourne

Hagride

22” x 22”

Acrylic on Canvas

 

Karin Colbourne

Mystification

26” x 16”

Acrylic on Canvas

 

As a person, I’m constantly in my head, always thinking of my past actions, planning future conversations, that haven’t even happened, or even reminiscing and thinking of what could’ve been. Even though I am a person whose mind is never at rest, one of things I never like to think about is my emotions. What started in the isolation period in quarantine turned into a reevaluation of who I am as a person, all this circling around my religious and spiritual identity, dealing with loss, and grieving the ends of friendships. There have been several times in those moments of reflection that I question how much I’ve changed, and if the person staring back at me in the mirror is the same person who was staring back at me months ago, or even a week ago. All of these swirling thoughts lead me to Culmination of Confusion. These pieces are an embodiment of my vulnerability, my change, and all my confusion, as I’ve taken to pouring all of my emotions into these distorted self-portraits as a way of confronting what I’m feeling. Outwardly, I look the same, even though inwardly my thoughts, beliefs, and views on the world are constantly shifting as represented in these paintings.