The Caretaker’s “Everywhere At The End of Time” Album (2019)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJWksPWDKOc

“Everywhere at the End of Time is the eleventh recording by the Caretaker, an alias of English electronic musician Leyland Kirby. Released from 2016 to 2019, its six studio albums use degrading loops of sampled ballroom music to portray the progression of Alzheimer’s disease. Inspired by the success of An Empty Bliss Beyond This World (2011), Kirby produced Everywhere as his final major work under the alias. ” – Wikipedia

Everywhere at the End of Time is a six hour album described above as an auditory representation of Dementia and Alzheimer’s. The first stage starts with old ballroom music that represents a happier and simpler time. But as the album progresses, the music distorts, clips, hiccups, muffles and as the hours slowly go by, the sounds can no longer be recognized as music. This represents a dementia patient losing touch of their memories, thoughts, and consciousness, slowly becoming nothing but a shell of their former self. It’s quite an unsettling experience to sit through, and while I definitely recommend a listen, as it is a fascinating piece of art, it is not for the faint of heart and for those who are disturbed by unconventional sounds and upsetting concepts like this.

I have taken a lot of inspiration from this album and incorporated that into my final project, probably because it’s such a powerful piece to me. I had listened to the entire album alone one night through as I was finishing my final for my horror movie class, and was trying to envelope myself in an unsettling and dreadful state of mind so I could really get into the headspace of writing a horror film premise. The album absolutely freaked me out, but emotions went beyond that of fear or discomfort. It was also calming at some points, especially during the earlier stages of the album where old-timey ballroom music is playing over an ancient record player. It was also saddening knowing the context, some parts actually made me cry for reasons I can’t fully explain. Kirby really knew how to capture the pleasant and warm feeling of old memories playing like a record in your head, but with very unsettling undertones for what’s to come. These uncomfortable feelings only rose further up to the surface as the music became more distorted and broken and eventually, unrecognizable.This is how Kirby takes listeners down a slow and dreadful decent into the mind of someone who, soon, won’t even have one anymore. Memories and mental stimulation slowly fade into disturbing jumbles and rumbles of incomprehensible noise that can only lead listeners to imagine what dementia patients go through when they start to lose grip of everything and everyone they’ve known.

My project has to do with memories and regrets. What we cherish and forget to cherish in every day life. I took inspiration from Everywhere at the End of Time, not through presentation (as it was a much more visual experience than the album), I can definitely give credit to this album for not only inspiring some of the sounds and concepts for the film, but also just helping me appreciate what I currently have, which is what truly inspired my major project topic.

Work Statement

this memory feels like it’s burning (2022) is a short abstract film I have created to pinpoint specific memories in my life, during and after the pandemic. Memories have become a cherished thing to me now ever since I realized that my ADHD was making it hard for me to remember so many things. And so, I feel I have picked up a habit of my mother, who records and posts everything, likely for the same reasons. Because all this is very personal to me, I want to make the culmination of videos and images have an abstract feeling, so that it won’t only just pertain to me. I made this film with the intent of hoping that it would be a healing experience for me, as it also tackles a recent break-up with someone I cared a lot for, and even though I have a lot of rage and sadness in me, I want to not regret the past year and instead look upon both good and bad memories with fondness. There were preliminary inspirations that helped build the film into what it is now. Albums like “Everywhere at the End of Time” (2019) by The Caretaker that showcase a terrifying auditory representation of a dementia patient losing their mind, and Ori Gersht’s “Exploding Flowers”, a visual of flowers and other plants right in the middle of a violent explosion. These pieces, while extremely different from what my film ended up being, inspired me much more than I thought they would and brought the development of the piece a long way.

Midterm Responses 4/18/22

Here is the summarized feedback that was given to me regarding my final project. My main concern was “how am I going to fit all these different pieces of footage together in order to tell a story other people have a chance at understanding”?

  • Use more voice over maybe to people can understand the message of your film
  • You have a lot of strong imagery, balance it out with a coherent voice
  • OR go full abstract and create your own combination of the crazy imagery
  • Get the interviews so that the point can be driven home and people can understand it better