My final project focus on depression, it’s a very common mental health disorder characterized by persistently depressed mood or loss of interest in activities,  if you stay depress for a long time it could lead to range from moodiness to grief, low self-esteem, depression, even pessimism, suicide attempts or behavior. Even worst some cases had obvious worries and anxiety. Serious person can appear hallucination, delusional wait for psychosis sex symptom, it can also affect certain neural circuits in the brain.

I create a series of photos work in pairs to represent the feeling of depression,  from the model’s body language i try to show Lonely and helpless, the composition magnify that even more there’s only you and your shadow. i try to use the abstract patterns to show her inner world, the chaos going on in her mind it’s very twisted and dark.

My work was focus on recreating when I first close my eyes trying to sleep, there will always be words and flash back showing up in my mind, i start thinking and worry about a lot of things for life and the future, it takes me a long time to fall in to sleep and dream. from the outside I look peaceful but my mind was in anxiety.

Words in the photo:

Sometimes you just have to push yourself just to get out of bed.
You stay up ’til 2am just wishing you were dead.
You ask yourself, “Why can’t it be someone else instead?”
You get tired of all the thoughts in your head.

You lose sight of who you want to be.
You blame yourself, screaming, “Why am I me?”
You wish you could just be free.
Open your eyes and you’ll see

That life is what you make it, and sometimes it’s hard.
We get battered and bruised, mistreated and scared.

We forget what’s important.
We forget our drive.
We all need a focus point,
A reason to survive.

Find your passion.
Find your drive.
Find something that makes you fight,
And you will survive.

Source: https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/find-your-drive

Tritanopia colorblindness

My project is focus on Tritanopia(a condition that the patient can’t recognize blue and yellow colors.) i try to recreate this symptom with falls landscape and combined them with man in a double exposure form.

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1ZGU9fxhxCNYqkqXerBgYSEAZpvYymoqOakG413cEoC8/edit?usp=sharing

My research artist was Elsa Mora, she was a New York based multimedia artist, mainly focus on cut paper creations. She was born and raised in Cuba and moved to Los Angeles in 2001, where she lived until 2014. She currently resides in upstate New York, her work has been exhibited worldwide in art galleries and museums.

I love her work call Mindscapes. The work was focus on thinking, the brain working in action, she try to recreate there inner world of the mine, while using the brain as a vessel. All of them looks stunning. The detail and shape are just perfect. It feel is make my machine by 3d printing, but they are actually made by hand. I can feel what she’s trying to express through her work, it’s through become landscape in the brains. Because you never know what’s going on inside the head when someone look totally normal from the outside. It’s eye opening work that I never seen before!

Very interesting artist Laurie Frick, she use the data capture from the EEG activity in brain and rearrange them in to grids of cardboard, paper and wood, which surprisingly similar to CPU transistor inside a computer.

https://www.lauriefrick.com/imaginedtime/fpeienfw0uej0haru680hv2vdi60gn